This business started from a glimmer oh hope.

For those of you who haven’t been a long for the ride, my business, my career all started with my blogging my feelings during my pain journey.

This little glimmer of hope that one day I would figure out my pain.

Well here we are, on the other side of it, still battling pain. This time not physical but the raw emotional pain I have been numbed to for years.

Growing up I was always criticized for taking everything too heart. No one intends to do this— but here we are.

Well I did literally take it all too heart. I am emotional and it led me to overthink my life. I now know my personality type (thanks Enneagram testing) and my well being thrives over feeling those big emotions, deep connections and authenticity.

—My normalcy depended on what I felt shamed for.

Well here I am, almost 30 questioning my entire mindset on everything.

I slowly have been awakened, as I have healed from years of unbearable pain, numbness and suffering.

At a young age, I convinced myself that I didn’t think right, and to feel shame for feeling all my feelings. So I turned inward, I became numb, angry and annoyed at the world.

I used drugs and heck yes I partied- but that only fed that criticized your not worthy little girl vibe I felt I deserved to live in.

I mean you are the worse, so might as well act as one right? Then the only person (who I thought) understood the child me was killed by a drug addict.

I got my act together real quick, but that shamed guilty little girl still felt like deserved it.

So she ignored the incredible amount of pain I suffered from. Until my labs didn’t show normal I believed literal it was in my head you crazy girl- you should be ashamed.

The shame and guilt that became my normal throughout life and I am just realizing how much of myself I lost to fear.

It is no secret I am going through a lot right now. However I come out of it, it all happened for a reason.

It may have taken me way longer than I would have asked, but my pain made me stronger. It made me realize who I am. It made me this passionate business women, mother and person.

I am struggling on letting that girl shine, because she has hurt so many people along her way trying to find her. But I am no longer guilty. I release the shame and these feeling that no longer serve me.

Thank you for those who have supported this glimmer that has created this empowering business.

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Published by Chronically Holistic

I’m a Yogi loving, Amateur Homesteading, Nature loving, Chronic Pain Fighting, Holistic Health Advocate here to share my journey to help you on yours. My health journey background revolves around undiagnosable pain since childhood. I was even wheelchair bound for a part of it. I’ve had many empty diagnoses including: RSD (now CRPS), POTS, TOS, Migraines, TMJ, Hyper-mobility, Depression and Anxiety. I’ve had four major surgeries related to these diagnoses and have spent thousands of dollars and hours at doctors. I’ve been on dozens of medications, supplements and herbs. I’ve seen all the medical and natural specialists around and have had more tests and imaging done at a young age than most will their entire life. My journey has given me the knowledge and importance of nutrition. Healing your body with real food and the importance of gut health. I’m finally healing and I’ve tried close to everything. I hit rock bottom and was beyond desperate. Hollistic Health has given me my life back. I hope my blog is able to point you in the right direction to allow you to heal and live your best life! Xo Kate !function(c,h,i,m,p){m=c.createElement(h),p=c.getElementsByTagName(h)[0],m.async=1,m.src=i,p.parentNode.insertBefore(m,p)}(document,"script","https://chimpstatic.com/mcjs-connected/js/users/0607efa9ef66057c1f4304870/02f3d8b2f297b1349fef4dab7.js");

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